the days of hearing

This week I am 20 weeks old, and we are half way through my growing! I am the size of a large mango or a banana (about 6-7 inches long and 10 ounces).  Everyone on the internets wants to make me into a fruit, but I don't know if a banana and a mango are the same size.  I just know that I am growing big! 

Mama keeps ordering more and more clothes on the internets too, and she says she hopes her next package gets here soon because working is not very comfortable in her old uniform anymore.  She is afraid she might be very, very big by the time I come out because she already feels big.  As often as we can we go for walks or do pilates or stretching together because it feels good and helps us feel strong.  Sometimes Mama likes to talk to me while we walk and tell me all the things we are passing by.  I get to see them some day soon.  

Baby Emsley is due to come any day and so Mama is helping Aunt Maddie get all ready and is learning a lot about all the things we will need in another few months.  Mama says Aunt Maddie is very brave and very excited to meet her little girl.  Mama and I will hopefully get to be in the room when Emsley comes and we are so excited!  While we wait, it seems like all Mama and Aunt Maddie talk about is baby clothes and baby baths and baby sleeping and scary words like "contraction" and "effacement" and "episiotomy." I think Emsley will be much less scary when she finally gets here.  

Mama and I are talking a lot more now, she can feel me kick all through the day (especially if she accidentally squishes me) and I can hear her talk to me now! She says pretty soon I'll be able to hear Daddy and people on the outside too.  She says Daddy is planning all sorts of music to play me through her tummy so that when I come out I will already know all of his favorite songs.  I think Daddy likes music.  I think I will like listening. 

Mama says she is learning a lot about listening too these last few weeks.  She says that when God is trying to say something it is hard to hear, because the world is loud and because our minds are afraid and because God doesn't use normal words sometimes to talk to us.  She says that sometimes the big words come in quiet places and they are hard to see.  She says that sometimes we have to wait with our eyes on just the right place to finally see what we need to know.  God has big plans, and big vision, and all the strength to help us get to the right place...but sometimes its scary to find out where you are going.  Mama and Daddy have been praying a lot about the next right place. 

What we are listening to today: 

God I Look To You